I am participating in a members show, organized by the Washington Projects for the Arts/Corcoran (WPA/C) called 9×10 at the WIlliam Parker Gallery, in DC and I will be exhibiting 3 cigarette paintings there (2 shown in this post, third is shown on the previous post). The show opens on Friday night 6-8pm and I’ll be there. I will take donations of cigarettes!
I’m feeling great – I am missing cigarettes less and less and I guess more importantly I am learning how to deal with not having any i.e. I am learning new behavioral skills. I’ve noticed if I have any cause for elation of mood (excitement, happiness, whatever) I really want to inhale smoke. I don’t know what normal people do when they are happy or want to celebrate. I guess I will have to ask some “normal†people. Bizarre! Now when I have cause to feel down or in bad mood, I am more inclined to blame that on not having cigarettes – now sometimes that may be true I could indeed be missing a cigarette but I think other times I am in just plain old bad mood and that temper really is mine. Could I have smoked so long that I hid behind a smokescreen? Every aspect of dealing with life had become a reason to have a cigarette not something to deal with….I really need to think more about this….I think I’ll start carrying a notebook with me to write down when I have an “urge†to have a cigarette – I am sure that will reveal a lot of my character.
