Sometimes I could cry and other times I feel so incredibly stupid… how could I have smoked for so long. While smoking, I read about smoking and its detrimental health effects, I saw pictures of diseased lungs and so forth and it did nothing to me…. these images or articles were just triggers to have another cigarette and I somehow managed to ignore the overwhelming evidence against cigarette smoking. Have I emerged from the smokescreen myself? I guess that is the power of addiction. Now I am horrified and the enormity of the damage I have done to my body frightens me.