AshesToAshes

Well I seem to be over my little sulk about not getting the grant! I have to make a special thanks to you who wrote to me with support. I SO appreciate it! In many ways now I am more energized now about the project and am starting my efforts anew tomorrow as I have cleaned off my to-do list. I’m strating into the 3d part of my work so will be creating some sculptural works.

When I had originally applied for the grant I had fleetingly worried about how I would react if I didn’t get the grant – remember that I had linked this quit to a professional goal because I had always failed to quit for myself – well that grant proposal was a major part of that professional goal. Not getting it was a huge test for me – on a platter I was handed a get out of jail card free and I could go back smoking with a great excuse in hand (at least it looks like a great excuse to a cigarette addict!). Well I resisted but boy was it trying for a few days and I owe so much to everyone who helped me through it. I grew up a lot but the beauty is that for once in my life I saw how stupid it would be to smoke. So all in all, I did great and I am proud to say I am well on my way to being a non-smoker!!

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